I am officially a working mama! Today was my first day at work after 2 months of maternity leave. I love my job. I never had any intention of being a stay at home mama - still don't - but if there's ever a day that I did, it's today! I've been working from home, planning events, and keeping on top of my e-mail, but starting back to work after 2 months of maternity leave terrifies me. I am going to miss our little man so much!
Jarrod and I were very blessed to find a wonderful nanny. She is delightful and already loves our boy. Jarrod and I will still have days working from home and playing from home also. I am focusing on those. I am also focusing on how excited I am to get back into my job. I love what I do and the people I work with. My career is my passion and fulfills a huge part of who I am.
I am not the first woman to go back to work. My coworkers will understand if I cry this week, and it will get easier. We will fall into a new routine and everyone will be happy. It will be hard. Motherhood is hard, working is hard, running a household is hard, but life is hard. But like everything else, sometimes we'll rock it and sometimes we'll fall on our faces. :-)
As sad as I am today, I am thankful that I'm going back to work because it's my choice. I'm thankful that I have such a wonderful life that I have a little boy to love, a job that is meaningful, and wonderful people to watch Wesley while I'm working.
This week will be rough around here as we all figure out our new life. Jarrod will be with Wesley alone more this week than he has total over the past 2 months. I'll be gone from him more than ever before as well. The good news is that it'll bring lots of new stories and things to share for you!
"Sometimes we'll rock it and sometimes we'll fall on our faces." So very true! And when I'm down on my face I need to remember that there will be--and are--other times when I'm rocking it, because I sure feel like I'm going to stay down there forever! :)
ReplyDeleteI found you through MODG. I'm a working mom, too, and it IS tough! Mine is 13 months and I stayed home with her 11 weeks.
ReplyDeleteJust remember that it is ALWAYS harder for us than for them, and that your baby will benefit from exposure to other people (trust me!).
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It IS tough, I know how you feel! But the fact that you're open about this transition will make it easier, I promise. Are you going to pump at work? If so, I'd love to see a blog about how you're making it work. (it took me a few weeks to work out the kinks).
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