Wesley Wednesday...leaving my boy

Leaving Wesley for a few hours for the first time was nearly impossible. I cried for about an hour. Jarrod and Wesley did fine, but Jarrod wasn't able to get anything done but caring for Wesley, who was about 5 weeks old.

Leaving Wesley so I could go back to work was very difficult. I missed him like crazy, cried the whole way to work, and left about 2 hours early because I just couldn't take it anymore. I adore my job, but I missed my boy.

 Jarrod and I left Wesley overnight about 8 weeks ago. We were gone about 36 ours for a work event. It was very challenging and I worried about him the whole time. I know he's fine without me, but I'm not fine. I miss my boy. He brings all kinds of joy to my life and when I'm not with him I feel a void.

Last week Jarrod and I went out of town to a conference in Kansas. We left Wesley at 3pm on Tuesday with a dear friend. After about 77 hours I was finally reunited with my boy. While I received text pictures, stories, and spoke with Wesley on the phone, I couldn't wait to see him again. I long for my kid.

Today I left him again for a few days. I'm off to another conference in California (tough life, right?!) and won't be home until Friday. After only being home for 4 nights, it was difficult to leave him again. I know I will miss him like crazy. 

I know it's very important to have a life outside of your children. I am well aware that it's good for him to see mama doing valuable work. I know he's in great hands and making all sorts of people happy. I know it is healthy and necessary, but it is so hard.

I imagine someday it will get easier to leave Wesley in the care of others, but today it's very hard. I hear that each phase just gets better and better. That every new thing he leans makes him even more fun. I believe this. And while I know I need a break every once and a while, I really enjoy the time we have together and always look forward to it.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder and seeing my boy after being in Kansas was so sweet. I will miss him this week but plan to take a lot of time with him this weekend. I don't take those moments for granted because I know how hard it is to be away from him. I make it through by reminding myself how much fun he's having with other people who love him.

When we finally made it back to Wesley he squealed with delight when he saw his mama and daddy. I loved on him and then had to run to the restroom for a second. He SCREAMED. We were told he didn't do that at all while we were gone. He was very clingy to mama for the next few days, which is very unusual. While I adore him loving on me, it did make it challenging to get much of anything done...

As you can tell by the pictures, our little man is VERY loved. We survived our trip and I know I'll be fine this week too. He's an adaptable baby who loves being with people.