Busy

I didn't mean to take a few days off from blogging and to be honest, if I weren't forcing myself to write today, I'd take the whole week. January was very busy. I had two out of town conferences that required me to leave my boys, stay at a hotel, and be away from home for more than 8 nights of the month. In between, I co-hosted two baby showers (one 5 hours away!), drove over 2,000 miles alone in 8 days, kick-started a new ministry at church, and had a very busy month at work. I felt like I was drowning most of the month.

I hate that feeling. I don't like being away from my family and I don't like feeling behind on my work. I spent many nights working from home because I was traveling so much for work during the day. I felt incredible guilt - guilt when I was away and guilt when I wasn't soaking up every second with my boys at home. I tried to keep up my projects at home, keep our house clean, and maintain relationships. I failed.

Balance is a constant struggle for me. Our lives all need balance...

• We need to eat a balanced diet in order to keep our bodies healthy
• We need to have fun, work (at something), and sleep in order to get the most out of life
• We need to put the important things first, at least most of the time

I've struggled with this long before I became a wife...long before I became a mama. My boys make it even more important and even more challenging to find balance.

I'm in a season of life where there simply isn't balance. A very wise man suggested to me that rather than finding balance in a day or even a week, balance comes in seasons. I'm in a season that is simply busy. I'm not sleeping as much as I'd like during this season. I'm not staying in my pjs as much as I'd like. But I'm finding time with my boys and finding time for myself wherever I can because I know that's important.

I am sorry that the blog has been neglected. I promise I have some interesting recipes, crafts, and stories for you soon. But for now, I'm going to put my feet up and watch last night's Bachelor.

How do you find balance in your life?